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Gabrielle Rodriguez
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
Philippines
TWITTER:gmrodriguez95
TUMBLR: poeticseeker
WORDPRESS: ambrosiaandhemlock
FACEBOOK: Arisa Horigome

Good day to you, my dear friends! \(^O^)/

Just a little about myself:

I've been writing for the longest time now, and I would really like to know where I can improve on. I've been writing poetry and would like to expand my writing style so I can be more flexible in writing different rhymes and measures. As for my stories, I would appreciate it very much if you would browse some of them. I've recently started writing fanfics too! So go ahead and ask for requests if you want. I'll gladly rack my brains to give you a good story :3

I love to draw. I've just started concentrating on drawing when a friend of mine inspired me to do so. I may not post too much of my works here, as I feel that they aren't very much (excuse me for the term) DA-worthy. I will occasionally post some from time to time. I would love it if you comment on them and suggest what I should work on.

I love to cosplay. This is actually one of my most recent unique hobbies that I acquired from being with friends who do so. I started cosplaying last year, and I intend to continue doing so until the time comes that I won't have any more money and strength to do so. I consider this hobby enjoyable (in spite of the costs T_T) because I get to enjoy the feeling of being someone else without having to completely change my character.


Lastly, I'm an introverted character, but I don't bite! I would love to talk to anyone since I want to get to know a lot of people. Why not start here, right? :D So go ahead and pm me if you want to. I DON'T BITE. Just beware of either my timidity or my hyper side ^O^
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I apologize to my wonderful watchers and readers if I have not been updated you guys in months. I will be entering my last term in college soon, so I had to deal with a lot of papers and activities so I can get my diploma by October. Rest assured that once things have calmed down a bit, I will be finishing up with my Romano x Reader, which I feel has long been left out in the cold.

But anyway, I want to share something with all of you guys, and that is on the choice I have to make, and what is whether or not should still pursue cosplaying, or should I turn in the wig and leave. 

Yes, I know it may be a horrifying choice I have to make, most especially with cosplaying. I've been in the hobby for almost three years, and I have loved every moment of it. It was my comfort and my escape from reality. That side of me has balanced the hectic rush of everyday life and has helped me cope up with struggles. It kept me away from bad habits, and has actually contributed to my well-being from the moment I decided on Avril Bradley as my first cosplay. 

But right now, I feel extremely insecure with myself, most especially in the physical aspect. In all honesty, I am insecure around all my friends, most especially the cosplayers. They are all great with the hobby, and when I also look at my cosplay account, I am so amazed with the development and improvement of those people that I feel that I cannot reach to their level even after three years of experience. It's like I have not improved from the moment I joined cosplay and that I'm not good enough to be accepted into the community anymore.

Instead of feeling good, I feel more pressured to look pretty and look slimmer, a fact that has already been nagging at my thoughts even before cosplaying. 

Instead of feeling happy, I feel more depressed when I realize that I lack the time (AND THE MONEY. GOD, THE MONEY) to cosplay the characters that I want to portray. 

Instead of feeling secure, I feel more cornered and imperfect. 

This has gone to the point that I might be reverting to my old ways, which is a really really bad thing. I know that I shouldn't quit cosplaying because the reason seems too shallow and irrational. I don't know what to do anymore regarding this matter because I really don't want to abandon this hobby.

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:iconrachelthepessimist:
rachelthepessimist Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks so much for the fav on my poem! :glomp:
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AsiaOneMoon Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi! How are you? :3
Haha I am an introvert also but you seem a nice person and hope we get along. ^____^
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Pamelly Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2014  Student Artist
ello~
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ShisaineKobayashi Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Grazie for the fave fratello! :iconromanoplz:
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stellaclaire Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
=3=
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madziulkabr Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the :+fav: !
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Zabisco Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Thaaaaaaanks for the fav :D
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ShisaineKobayashi Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave! o u o

:iconsebastianplz: "A sincere thank you to you bocchan!"


...oh. it's you, Trancy.
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tommyboywood Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thanks so much
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stellaclaire Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
no problem!
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